Ran over to school this morning for FM orientation, and to get a critique from my conductor. It was the first time he’s heard me play since our spring concert last year. :)
Soo, I played. For him and our Glee Club teacher. And it was really funny because I was genuinely nervous. Which is funny because, I’ve gotten to the point in my skill level where I know I’m better than everyone around that I don’t get nervous anymore.
Which MAY sound stuck up. But I’m really not. It’s just a fact.
And I say that because my orchestra barely has it’s shit together until opening night and because I’m section leader of the violas. Violas meaning 3 violas, including me.
So I can say that, and actually mean that. Because it’s a fact and everyone knows it.
Lol. I’m sorry. That’s just the way it is (things will never be the same)
BUT BACK TO THE STORY:
I played. And because I was nervous I fucked up. And was “GGRRR” in, which they laughed at. But I was pissed. So I sent a mental wave of “FUCK YEAH BE A MAN. FOCUS TESSIE” and hahah stopped fucking up.
So when I finished, my conductor was like mind fucked. Hahaha Honestly! I was expecting him to be like “Uh… It was okay….” BUT he was all like “Whoa! I’m impressed! Your intonation was on point!”and all ” You’ve really improved! I’m shocked. Dramatically!” and our glee club teacher was all ” Haha yeah. So good. So good” so that was funny.
But honestly, last night I was freaking outttt, because I’ve been preparing for this day since last September. So I went all Rocky-styled and shit. So it felt really good to have the Conductor-seal of approval.
I feel like now, I can go in and preform my best and not be freaking out 4343943278x. Don’t get me wrong. I’ll still be freaking out. But like not so much. Hehe.
Orchestra. The pleasure. The pain.
I’m really glad I’ve improved though. I mean for like a quick song of maybe 3 minutes for them to be so blown away. Man! I can’t wait to show off my mad skills when we get our winter pieces!!! Hahah!! FUCK YEAH VIOLA LESSONS!